My dear friend, you aren't alone. Believe me, I cover up the mirrors in my home because I hate my body so much. I'm someone who has starved herself silently, and kept going through class and fainted (and lied about why). My parents brutally abuse me about my weight, they shame me, and you know what? My life is still precious to me.

It's possible your medication is causing your weight gain. I'd suggest you go for a blood and thyroid test, many cause cravings and none of that is your fault. If not, there are strategies to help binge eating.

You aren't alone. You are loved. Please, seek help because you are precious to me as a friend.

Losing weight for your health is fine. But your health is the most important part. You are beautiful.