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[floranna]

I have a binge eating disorder. I weight 140 kilos. I am hideous and feel like I am bursting with fat.

It's in a point I feel jealous everytime someone says they have anorexia or bulimia and think: "Well, atleast they get thinner".

I disgust myself.

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[yukinoomoni.livejournal.com]

What does your doctor say about this? It sounds like both your depression and your inability to keep fit goes hand-in-hand ;.;

[floranna.livejournal.com]

My original doctor for my depression treatment left, and I haven't met my new one for the whole 9 months she/he has been assigned to me.

[yukinoomoni.livejournal.com]

That's right, I think you mentioned that to me before.

I think now is the time more than ever to actively look for a new doctor yourself. Clearly waiting isn't doing you any good, so looking would be the best course of action.

In the meantime, if you ever need to just unload your sad or your mad or your glad, you can email me.

[avocado-love.livejournal.com]

That's what I was about to say. Could one thing be leading to another? Has this been a slow upward trend over many years or a sudden spike of gaining weight?

And besides, I've seen pictures of you when you've posted it. You're not hidious -- you're pretty! I think you need to see your doctor, because I'm concerned that your depression might be warping your self worth, and that's a scary path to go down. :(