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I am sorry that I have been quiet here. I am far more active in tumblr, where I am Floranna2, but even there I mainly just reblog stuff.

So much has been happening in these past months. Some of it good, some of it bad and some just genuinelly frustrating. I actually want to talk about all of that, but I think I will make talk about those things in separate posts. May take days to get through them all, but that ust makes me update far more often.

My eating has been...pretty up-and-down. I can't remember if i hvae said this, but binge eating disorder is oretty, well, not new but undiagnosed in Finland. I was lucky that I got into some group therapy with others who have the same disease. First was six meetings long and the second was fifteen meetings long and both were pilot projects. It has been amazingly helpful and I have gotten some very good friends from there.

I still binge and I am nowhere near healing, but I am getting better. But this is not what I meant to talk about. One of the hosts (?) was writing a book about binge eating and it was published this spring. She sent emails to us of any of us were willing to give an interview to a newspaper, nameless or not. Some agreed to do it nameless, but I was willing to give an interview with my full name and picture. I thought my part would be only a small part of it, but in the end there were two massive pictures of me with our family's cat and my interview took nearly half of the text in that arycle and it was a full spread.

Next day a news people call and ask if I was willing to do a television interview to the news. I said yes again. The full interview took about 5 minutes and can still be found in the 'net, as they had to chop it down for the actual news.

I am still pretty flabbergasted about this, but all the feedback has been positive. As I have a very rare last name, my parents' friends have been asking if I am their girl and have said that I have been very brave in telling all that about myself and my struggles. I did have to call my grandpa and tell him about my eating disorder after he found out about it after all this, which I wasn't very proud about. It wasn't funny to tell him about it, when he bareky knows about anorexia or bulimia.

I could probably link that interview but it's in Finnish, so...
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No, seriously, I just had a near full-out freakout when I realized that one of my internet friends hasn't updated her journal nor her twitter in over a year, started asking her friends and people in the twitter if they have heard from her, sure that something terrible has happenend.

She has just been busy with rl, so my heart actually eased a bit from it's panicking.

Now I am feeling spectacularly silly and foolish and want push my head in to a bush like a bunny.

But I am so relieved that nothing has happened to her it's ridiculous.

Oh, and I've gotten a job. =DD I am in the Finland's postal office's logistics center where I sort post packages. I am on an evening shift, so I go to work at 4 pm and leave 10 pm, and arrive at home around 11.30 pm. The funny thing is that I am usually terrible at staying up late, but now it's 0.30 in the night and I am completely awake. Even when I was doing nothing and unemployed I never stayed up this late or slept to 10-11 am. I find it funny.

And I seriously like my job. I love sorting through stuff, looking what kind of packages people get (I don't look the names really, only a bit where they come from and where they go). I also saw a package that came from Pakistan! That was a bright spot on my day.

Now that I am working my eating rythm has gotten magnificiently better and I have lost 3-4 kilos in two weeks. I have one of those step calculators and everyday I break 10 000 steps without even trying. I am getting more fit and feel way much better.

It's only until christmas but there is a possibility that I may get to come back on spring. And next september I'll continue my studying and I feel actually positive that I'll be able to do that.

I actually like my life now, how weird is that? It is to me! =DD


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