floranna

I have wanted to do this kind of a post for a while. So, here it is.

I am a lesbian. When I see a beautiful woman, my first thought is that I would love to kiss her breasts and go down on her. My ultimate example of stunningly beautiful woman is Queen Latifah. I like women strong shoulders, big breasts, soft waist, wide hips and strong tighs. Height isn't an issue, even if my pride would like her to be at least little shorter than me. ^^ (six feet and proud of every inch!)

I am only out to my mum and few friends. I have said that I am a lesbian to my sister and brother, but it was in a passing and I am not sure if they think I was joking or not. They haven't mentioned about it later at all, but that doesn't worry me. My dad might know, because mum might have told him but I know he wouldn't make a fuss about it either way so I am not sure. When my mum talked to me when I was looking for a job and said that I shouldn't tell the employer at least at first about my depression and sexuality, it cheered me up more than she could imagine. She took my sexuality as a part of me and didn't think it was just a 'phase' or that I had been joking back then when I told her.

When one of my friends started talking about what kind of women I am interested in, or actually she said that usually she would ask what kind of men in looks I would like, but because I am gay she wanted to know about my taste in women. This brightened my day more than anything. Even if she continued to ask if I would like the other to be the 'man' in the relationship or if I was the 'man', I didn't get angry about it (that much). When I said that I consider myself a woman and I want to date with a woman, she looked a bit chagrined but understood. This is the first time we have talked about my sexuality. And yes, she is straight. ^^

I have problems when people say they are bisexual. I grew up in a place and surrounded by people who said that they are bi but honestly? I think some of them just said that to appear cool and accepting. That's why when people say they are bi I get suspicious and think if they are using it like a fashion statement, not because they truly are.

I want to get married and have kids. Three atleast, and I hope at least two of them will be girls. I have already chosen names for them. I feel always a bit silly when I think about this but I want to truly become pregnant, mother and have children. I also want to be able to give children to childless couples, especially gay males.

I have chosen to come out of closet to my uncle, aunt, cousins and the rest of the people I know when I am in a serious relationship, so they know I am not kidding about it.

I always say about my sexuality that I am definetly interested in women, but not sure about the men. I notice myself thinking that how I know I have atlest a bit sexual interest in men, or if I am completely lesbian. I don't want to say I am completely gay and then come to show my boyfriend later. That would be embarassing.

On the other note, when I meet a gay man my first reaction is that how can someone not be interested in women. I mean, what isn't there to desire? Xb Ironically though, straight women won't bring this kind of a reaction to me.