floranna

Okay, on one of my ff.net fanfics some dude came and said that they want to publish that fic in a collection. Weird as hell, because I KNOW that it needs editing like I need air, but I am not talented yet to do it without advice.


Well, I go to their profile, and they are VERY religious. I mean they say they believe, like Ted Nugent, that homosexuality is morally wrong. So, I get a bit pissed and add to my profile this: “I am cis!woman, so refer to me as she/her. I am also homoromantic bisexual, but I identify as lesbian. And proud of it!“ (Very true BTW)


SO now I get this: “My rules as a Christian is no GLBT content with **** ****** Press but there is a publisher who does allow it as this is owned by Tabetha Jones though. I looked at your profile and don’t want to compromise my beliefs some. I had published a writer who escaped from homosexuality and seen death threats from the militants.”


And get this, the fic has incest, suicide, pagan religion (Finnish paganism) but my homosexuality turns them off? I am not even hurt, this shit is hilarious!

There is a one thing which I have been wanting to say for a long time. It's nothing big, nothing world-changing reveal or even important, but I have been wanting to say it for a while.

I don't believe in destiny.

The idea of everyone having destiny which is unchangeable or somehow rules your whole world and spirit is very anxiety-indusing to me. There are so many people who suffer endlessly, who never get the chance or the strength to fight back, whose deaths are never recorded and whose lives are just like flies', fast gone and no-one notices them. The thought that this was their destiny is sickening to me.

SOme people have mentioned that it was my destiny to survive my suicide attempt, but even this fills me only with fear and restlessness. I believe that world is filled with coincidences, and if you are lucky, these coincidences give you a chance to make your own life or the world better. That it's you who, in the end, makes it possible.

Or all of this is in my mind because I read Naruto in a very receptive age. ^^