floranna

Sometimes I just wonder why the fuck I even try. I try to be a good and kind person to everyone, I really do and when I think of question that might be embarassing, stupid or otherwise risky I try to make it a joke about my cowardice or intelligence or just...well, soften it.

This is about the Teen Wolf fandom. I am very new to there, and I am followig this person in tumblr that is very...well, she calls herself lunatic and is very fiery with her opinions and with everything. She has said how she hates one of the actors in the show and I have been confused as why. So I finally grow balls big enough to ask her why, and she just...gets mean about it how I should have googled it, I mean I could've found it by putting: why (her nick) hates (the actor), in to the google search.

It didn't come to mind, honestly. I just really liked her fic and the fire in her posts and her confidence so I wanted to make contact to her, get her to...I don't know, to know me? At least for a short while? Let her know that this type of person is following her actively now and wants to say hi?

It just...she got so mocking and angry about it. I didn't even realize I could've make her feel like it. Now I am feeling ashamed and angry at myself and I am kinda hoping that I hurt her feelings somehow rather than that she just mocked me for the fun of it.

I don't know even what I am trying to say here.

Oh, and I am Floranna2 in tumblr, please follow me if you want. I usually just repost interesting and funny shit there.