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[floranna]

I have a binge eating disorder. I weight 140 kilos. I am hideous and feel like I am bursting with fat.

It's in a point I feel jealous everytime someone says they have anorexia or bulimia and think: "Well, atleast they get thinner".

I disgust myself.

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[lady529.livejournal.com]

I've been where you are (I weighed a bit less than you do, but then I'm shorter than you are, so it evens out), and I'm very sorry that you're at that place where you feel disgusted with yourself. Depression and body issues is an awful combination of things to have. I love hiking too, and it was devastating when my knee refused to cooperate and I couldn't go hiking.

I remember you posted a picture of you some time back, I think it was a graduation picture of sorts, and I thought you looked lovely.

It's not easy, but managing depression, even if it's just managing it a bit, can make big improvements on how you feel about yourself. I'd see about getting a doctor who, with your therapist, can see if there are any meds you could either change or try. There's no point in having a doctor if you never ever see them.

Please have a hug : )

The Lady 529