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florannaMy dreams are really fucking weird.
Or not.
Well, the story behind this is (funny as fuck) a bit interesting... And may be considered TMI. About sex. And me. So run far away if you are sensitive. ^_~
You know that when psychiatrist want to evaluate the depression with a certain quizzes, there is always a question about how this has affected your sex life? I always answered it that it had affected be none or very little, but I have been proved wrong. It seems that I have been depressed for so long that I have practically missed my teenager sexual awakening. I mean, I have put my hand down in my pants when in bed because it felt good as long as I remember, but nothing special. Now that I have started feeling better, my sexual desires have woken up.
It doesn't show up much (oh God I hope), but I have watched some porn but noticed that watching it doesn't bring me really off and it's more uncomfortable and desirable. Mostly it comes to me in my dreams, which are getting...preeeeeetty hedonistic.
Few nights ago I saw a dream where I was going to a summer cottage (our family's or theirs, I am not sure) and we were planning on having sex the whole weekend and just getting to know our each others bodies. I was going down on the other woman to eat up her cunt, and she was a bit embarassed, but she knew that it was one of my fantasies and let me do it. But before I could begin, three other women (their family friends) arrived and pretty much spoiled all of our plans. And I wake up.
Last night was...pretty much hilarious. Me and Draco Malfoy were going to his familys summer cottage, where every one of them had an own small cottage for their own use. Me and Draco went to his and lied down to the bed. I was my back against the window, but I still saw Lucius looking in. I hid my face that he wouldn't recognize me, but he saw my naked body, came in and started yelling at how Draco could take so fat woman to his bed. Draco was defending me, and Lucius left.
After that, we didn't begun to have sex, but he transferred the lines of all the tattoos I wanted to my back and begun tattoo them (he was a tattoo artist and regular artist). There were several, and one of them was black-and-white picture of a woman and other was Starfire's head. There were several others. He tattooed few of them, but after the break I had to ask him to stop, because my mum didn't know that I was getting tattooes and I didn't want to surprise her with so many. He started painting a painting and I watched, but he was also in hurry because Lucius wanted it done and he didn't want to piss him off too badly.
And all this time I was thinking that am I completely lesbian and will I enjoy this at all, and being sexually frustrated.
Pretty messed up, right? And I really need to get laid.
Or not.
Well, the story behind this is (funny as fuck) a bit interesting... And may be considered TMI. About sex. And me. So run far away if you are sensitive. ^_~
You know that when psychiatrist want to evaluate the depression with a certain quizzes, there is always a question about how this has affected your sex life? I always answered it that it had affected be none or very little, but I have been proved wrong. It seems that I have been depressed for so long that I have practically missed my teenager sexual awakening. I mean, I have put my hand down in my pants when in bed because it felt good as long as I remember, but nothing special. Now that I have started feeling better, my sexual desires have woken up.
It doesn't show up much (oh God I hope), but I have watched some porn but noticed that watching it doesn't bring me really off and it's more uncomfortable and desirable. Mostly it comes to me in my dreams, which are getting...preeeeeetty hedonistic.
Few nights ago I saw a dream where I was going to a summer cottage (our family's or theirs, I am not sure) and we were planning on having sex the whole weekend and just getting to know our each others bodies. I was going down on the other woman to eat up her cunt, and she was a bit embarassed, but she knew that it was one of my fantasies and let me do it. But before I could begin, three other women (their family friends) arrived and pretty much spoiled all of our plans. And I wake up.
Last night was...pretty much hilarious. Me and Draco Malfoy were going to his familys summer cottage, where every one of them had an own small cottage for their own use. Me and Draco went to his and lied down to the bed. I was my back against the window, but I still saw Lucius looking in. I hid my face that he wouldn't recognize me, but he saw my naked body, came in and started yelling at how Draco could take so fat woman to his bed. Draco was defending me, and Lucius left.
After that, we didn't begun to have sex, but he transferred the lines of all the tattoos I wanted to my back and begun tattoo them (he was a tattoo artist and regular artist). There were several, and one of them was black-and-white picture of a woman and other was Starfire's head. There were several others. He tattooed few of them, but after the break I had to ask him to stop, because my mum didn't know that I was getting tattooes and I didn't want to surprise her with so many. He started painting a painting and I watched, but he was also in hurry because Lucius wanted it done and he didn't want to piss him off too badly.
And all this time I was thinking that am I completely lesbian and will I enjoy this at all, and being sexually frustrated.
Pretty messed up, right? And I really need to get laid.
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Date: 2011-07-24 08:35 pm (UTC)Second, I think it's cool you're coming into it now rather than having had it and lost it...I'm hypersexual and eternally paranoid of losing it when I finally manage to get myself on medication. "But--but what about seeex? D8"
Granted, I've only ever had sex with myself, so I guess I'd be the only lover I'd be disappointing. XD
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Date: 2011-07-24 09:36 pm (UTC)It's just your brain exploring your interests and desires.
Don't look at them as weird. They aren't, they are completely normal. I'm 31 and I still have weird sex dreams despite being asexual and not really interested in sex with other people.
Weird sexual or sensual dreams are normal.
And I'm so happy to hear you're feeling better *hugs*
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Date: 2011-07-25 03:51 am (UTC)