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[floranna]

I watched yesterday CSI NY with my parents. Nothing new now special about this, but there was this one guy who killed himself by taking overdose with his anti-depressedants.

That made me feel seriously uncomfortable and I was happy that the show ended after that so I could go to my room and sleep. Exactly year ago I tried to kill myself by taking overdose on all the meds I found in our family's medicine shelf. And my own anti-depressedants too. A year. I am feeling generally better, but the thought of entrance exams and the fact that I would really like to have a job which is impossible to get when you don't have much work experience has left me stressed and high-strung.

I am supposed to do billion things, pass few tests so I can work as a waitress (for example hygenia test and the test which allows me to serve alcohol to other people) I have already failed both of them once. Avatar_bigbang I haven't even started.

May is going to fucking wonderful...

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[floranna.livejournal.com]

All of these worries can released by the fact that I get a job. Then I don't have to hurry so much with the hygienia and other test because those I take only to have a better chance at getting a job. And even if I got to the uni, I have planned to enroll there next year. It is possible here in Finland, because I don't want to move in to another city when my teraphy hasn't yet been finished.

I know I'll have time to write it at summer, when I get finally my own computer (now we have only a one and five people use it) as my graduation present.

I just hope so badly that I get that job...